im literally the only thing between my mum and death bc im caring for her 24/7 but she treats me like shit and im so sick of it. im literally ruining my life, prospects and health to take care of her atm and i just dont fucking deserve it. 

tonight i lost it, i snapped and i acted kinda violently. i didnt touch her or anything i just.. idk how to explain it. i laid down the law i guess. but thats not me. i dont do that shit, i talk to people i dont dominate their space. 

its just weird its like, i have barely have any friends bc i skipped on out on uni partially bc of this, i have no job because im doing this, my family are all so fucking distant and now i dont even recognise myself. i feel so fucking isolated and idk what to do. im so tired of it all. i cant take it much longer i swear.